Miss Bella

One time wasn't enough, always have to go back for seconds. Another wristband added to collection. This time it wasn't my idea. The parental control until (mainly the female one) insisted on it since my temperature of 103.5 was not going down after fever reducers. So once again, I got up, put some stuff on and went to the ER. This time they made me wait. I sat in a waiting room for about 45 minutes until they took me in. Of course there just had to be a guy who checked me in...

Saturday night was too much. The pain got so bad that I literally wanted to kill myself so I would not have to feel it anymore. I was going on and on about how I can't take it and I won't live through it and I was crying uncontrollably because I really did think it was better to die than feel the pain I felt. Ended up going to UCSF where the first thing they did was take my temperature and blood pressure. Then I was given the wristband with my name and date of birth and some kind of...

This being sick thing I am doing had gone beyond all other sick things. At first I had no idea what the hell it was and why I kept waking up/going to sleep with a fucking temperature of 101.4 for 2 days straight. And then I completely loose my apatite and start feeling super hot when it was actually freezing cold outside. Last night it went from 101 to 102. After doing blood tests (I swear it looked like they drained most of my blood out) I was told this shit will last for about 4 weeks...

I am very hesitant to say that I might be suffering from a case separation anxiety disorder. That sounds a bit too extreme and being so drastic is not my philosophy anymore. Just kinda feels like everyone and everything that was close to me is leaving. One of my amazing friends who was there for me through everything I ever got myself into is moving away, as well as other friends who I knew for over 7 years. I know I will miss them dearly and not being able to see them anytime I want will be...