Maureen

How pathetic is that? Well, I don't drink anymore and I'm 40, so really, what are my options? I have no interest in going out. It entails standing. I hate standing. And seeing live music? After spending about 10 years at shows both watching & playing, it's got to be something special to get me to go and stand. Sorry, but it's true.

So the Fuzz site is becoming this kind of imaginary friend. I guess it's work, too in some ways. There's no delineation for me. There's no punching out because my job and who I am are intertwined. The only jobs I've had like that were my band, when I worked as a writer and then the Pollyanna years (self-imposed self-employment encompassing everything from artist management, music publishing, booking, publicity, and bartending). That's how I work best, when I don't feel like I'm working.

So back to my pathetic-ness. I don't really want to be anywhere. I get doses of cool shit every now and then. Tomorrow I'm going to a rally/show in Chicago to see Tom Morello play. I'm sure I can find a chair.

So, there you have it. I'm boring, but not actually bored. Is that possible? I think they call that aging.