Kathym14 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14 Sun, 07 Sep 2008 18:41:27 -0700 Fuzz.com en http://www.fuzz.com/ http://www.fuzz.com/_/images/logo/blimp.png http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Book http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Book#comments http://www.lulu.com/content/2353721]]> Mon, 12 May 2008 17:57:06 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Book http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/All-The-Love-In-Me http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/All-The-Love-In-Me#comments How can I say this?

Very easily because night after night and day after day I sadly carry with me all that I feel with no place to let it go.
I long for love but all I get are players , pimps and liars who feed on the emotions of the innocent.
I want to share a love so beautiful but I get nothing in return. I long for the touch of a loving man so sweet and so pure but I get nothing.
I wish that I could close my eyes never to see the sun again because it just seems so unfair that the tears i shed and nothing ever changes.
All the love in me will stay never to see the light of day, never to know te laugh of one that could share my heart.
All of the love in me will someday soon fade and no one will know this and will just past.]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:46:03 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/All-The-Love-In-Me http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Music-of-Love http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Music-of-Love#comments
As Passions explode like crashing cymbols in an orchestra,

Smooth like the notes on a page.

He didn't know where she began,
She didn't know where he ended,
twisitng and turning like an overture of a haunting melody.

Mellow.
somber.

Passionate and Strong,

As they pleasured each other in ecstasy
he would breathe her name with a sigh
and she would follow with a similar reply
Like two vocalizing singers in harmony.]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:30:44 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Music-of-Love http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/what-is-love-1 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/what-is-love-1#comments Is it a kiss from a lover near by or hearts and symbols sent from a cyber flame?

Is it full of hope and truth or is it full of lies and deceit?

What Is Love...
That is something to ponder...
Is it meant to bring peace, forgive all things, and give warmth
or is it a flaming lustful spewing sputtering nasty spear aiming to pierce the heart of the honest one

Love, What Is love...

Is it truly better to have loved and lost and never have it at all?

That saying seems so cold and empty.... painful

But, what is love....

Some say God/ Jah is love
But if we are in his image why do we kill, hurt, con and destroy each other in the name of something so BEAUTIFUL
What Is love.....]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:25:47 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/what-is-love-1 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Music-4 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Music-4#comments
I love all music but my favorite is old school R&B groups like Heat Wave and Alexander, Oneal Switch, Kool& The Gang,etc. What are a few of your favorites.]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 19:02:00 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Music-4 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Making-Love-with-you http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Making-Love-with-you#comments
The moon is high in the sky and shines down on us in bed you and I
Time seems to stand still with every kiss.
Sweat streams from your body as we move in sync
Nothing else seems to matter but the beat of your heart next to mine.
Your hands caress my body knowing every inch of me
Me pleasing you in ways that make you never want to leave.
Hearing you call my name as I moan with the sweetness of every twist and turn.
My body trembles with every touch.
Love fills the room and over takes the sound of music as we grow as one ,
Passions explode with every passing hour.
Intimacy felt so good and made me feel proud to be a woman
Your woman in your arms.
Loving you made me feel so happy that you were my man with your head upon my breast as we breath each other in deep.
Free my mind, body and soul is the mission you take on when you are stroking me delivering pleasure to my zone
Earth quaking love making …. Hours of undeniable ecstasy.]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:21:18 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Making-Love-with-you http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Monday-Morning http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Monday-Morning#comments
Monday morning the alarm clock rings.
The coffee pot comes on and smells of my wake up elixir pulls me out of bed.
Birds begin to sing as the sun rises over the horizon.
The Dj plays “Workin’ For The Weekend “ By The O’Jays.
Steam fogs up my mirror as rain falls from my shower head and washes away the night before, giving me a feeling of refreshment.
Memories of the night before dance in my head of you telling me goodbye because our weekend of playing house and passion was coming to an end.
My longing for a more permanent commitment and you not being ready….. Content with playing house on the weekend really rocked my brain.
Monday morning facing another week of drudgery as I fight the a.m. traffic.
Walking into my building exchanging greetings with the security staff…. Ready for my Monday Morning in my cubical facing the window thinking of you and the night before.
By Katherine Mills
Written 4/11/08]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:20:52 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Monday-Morning http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/What-Happened-to-Us http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/What-Happened-to-Us#comments We were in love once.
Time should have made things better.
Time made things worst.
I wanted more love and to share your world.
I wanted to be part of your life.
I wanted to be your wife.

I wanted to share my life with you and go through the ups and downs together.
You said you wanted that too.

You asked me to marry you.
You pledged your love to me.
Promising to never let me go.
Goals of yours got in the way of our love.
It was either them or me.
You made that ultimatum not me.
You viewed me as a distraction instead of the support I was being.
You put your needs before mine.
I had to pay the cost for all the women who made you live their dreams and not your own.
I had to be the one to be put on hold as if I were some package to be put on layaway.
Maybe it was the distance because Tampa is not next door to Lake City .
I would drive to you and you would drive to me

Maybe those weekends were just too much for you and you grew tired of them.
All of a sudden you need space.
You have your independence.
Nothing or no one was going to stop you from making your first million by the age of 40.
Yesterday you turned 39 and you made your first ten thousand in less than a month.
You are happy and proud.
I find it funny you have no time for me yet when ever something happens good or bad you can remember to call me.
You claim you still love me very much but you shut me out all of the time.
If I call you…. When I need your support…. It is always an inconvenience.
I get comments like “I work during the day did you forget?”
Well my answer to you is so do I but I needed you … I wanted you to know I love you.
My body still craves you. My heart belongs to you and I need you.
Yet, I get rejected and I have doubts so I sent your cheap ass ring back.
Yes ,I knew that my engagement ring of 6 years ago was part of a 99 dollar or 49 dollar gift set.
Cheap. But I never complained it came from you and from your heart so I thought.
I go through life never knowing if you truly love me or if you will get married on me once you make it big.
I go through life wondering how long must I wait for you.
Should I wait?

I have cried over you…. Prayed about you… accepted the fact that I can’t shake you.
I force myself to live without you even though my heart is breaking inside.
I still long for you and desire you… want what is best for you.
I am still your biggest fan.
I love you, but I cannot allow myself to be your fool.
I love you ,but I cannot continue to compromise my beliefs.
I love you, but I cannot continue to be your convenience.

I love you ,but I have to be true to me.
For once I want you to realize that I too am very busy.
I too need you to be in my corner.
For once I want you to be there for me.
I need your support .
I need us to share and feed off of each other

For I too have goals.
I too have needs that must be met.
Phone calls from you to make sure I am still around and single I know your game.
Taking me for granted and leaving me hanging is all you do.
The saga may no longer continue……. I know it is on me.
I still love you]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:18:31 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/What-Happened-to-Us http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Desire http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Desire#comments If I can have my one desire what would it be?
It would be a man with average height.
He would have cocoa brown skin.
His eyes would be deep brown with gold flecks in them that light up when he smiles.
He would have strong hands that can caress my skin so gently.
He would play music because I love musicians.
He would play guitar, bass, keyboards, drums and he would be able to play the song that is in my heart.

He would have a very creative mind someone that can talk about any subject intelligently.
His sense of humor would be one that could make me laugh at any given moment.

He would have the sensitivity to realize that I ..as his woman would have needs different than his and he would try to understand them.
He would accommodate me and I would do the same for him.
We would blend so well like ying and yang. We would balance each other out.
It goes without saying that every couple will argue and disagree, He will be the type to make it his business to keep the home fires burning and make it easy for me to respect and love him in return.
He will have my back just like I will have his.
We will have a love as sweet as a symphony.
Strong and powerful intense and inviting.
If I could have my one Desire What Would It be?
It would be You.]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:16:48 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Desire http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/I-dream-of-you-When http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/I-dream-of-you-When#comments
I dream of you often when I don’t hear from you .
I think of you often when ever I need a lift.
You are my friend someone I can see with a beacon at the end of the tunnel.
Could it be you are my fantasy?
I dream of you often and it all seems very real.
I hear you speak of music and feel you kiss my sweet spot.
Could it be I like you more than I care to admit?
I listen intently when you talk about Hendrix and his greatness
I talk about his greatness too along with his sexiness.
I dream of you when you remind me of who and what I am
You make me feel so free.
Even though you are not near me
And you have another in your life
Some how you complete me even though I treat you like a brother from another mother.
You mean a lot to me.
I dream of you often when…….]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:10:26 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/I-dream-of-you-When http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Mr-Man http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Mr-Man#comments Mr. Man I did not give you permission to walk my way.
Because you see I am not interested in you.
Mr. Man I did not tell you to even look at me with that devilish smile of yours that tells me you are up to no good.
Mr. Man who told you to even ask me what my name is ?
Mr. Man you know you are wrong.

I am sitting at this table minding my own business looking as sexy as I want to be talking with my friends and here you come to ruin it all.
Standing there looking so smooth asking me to dance with you.
I guess I will dance with you since nobody else is asking and I hate to be rude.
You see I am a lady and I must behave well in public. This is what my momma taught me.
Mr. Man why are you pulling me closer to you so I can smell your heavenly cologne.
You are getting too familiar with me.

Mr. Man How dare you look at me that way making my heart skip a beat and my palms get so sweaty.
Mr. Man I don’t want you to think of me as being too forward but I had a lovely time and would like to call you sometime Mr. Man.]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:09:13 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Mr-Man http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Second-Chances http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Second-Chances#comments
I am sorry I hurt you baby I didn’t mean to make you cry.

I know I was with that girl and she means nothing to me.

She was just a groupie and I had just finished playing our last set.

She was looking mighty good though from where I was standing.

She is not as pretty as you baby naw she had no morals she was willing to do anything and everything to get next to me.

Baby she is not classy like you because you can hold your ground you are not weak you just don’t fall for anything or anybody .
You love with your whole heart and you are honest and open.
When I saw the pain in your eyes It had caused me to feel something leave my spirit.
It didn’t feel good baby. I felt like I had lost everything I had worked hard for in that split second.
No baby she didn’t force me to take her to bed and I will admit I was weak.
It is sure good to be home and I want to make it up to you.
Being on tour is a Bitch…. The food , The lonely nights and me missing you like crazy.
How are the kids where they at I miss them too. All I keep thinking about is Jr. He is a hell of a bass player like me his old man.
Baby I know you not leaving me when I am trying to say I am sorry. Please put the bag down and let me talk to you. I want to hold you baby I missed you so much. I am so sorry. I wish those pictures didn’t end up on You Tube or My Space. Baby I promise I will never stray again. There is no excuse for my behaving badly and not taking in the consequences of losing your love forever. Please baby I am on my knees. I am a vulnerable man. I don’t want you to leave. Baby please stay. Don’t you believe in our love?
Beloved don’t you believe in our vows?
Baby….. Kat honey…. Don’t you believe in me?
Most of all , Don’t you believe in Second chances?]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:08:18 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/Second-Chances http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Poetry-Forgiveness http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Poetry-Forgiveness#comments Why is it when a woman cheats on her man she is everything but a child of God. He can’t forgive her nor can he forget that another man touched what was supposed to be his.
Yet, here you come from off of tour with your heart in your hand and her panties in your pocket begging for my forgiveness.
There you were as I walked in the door thinking I was surprising my talented bass playing man …. Wearing nothing under my coat but a smile.
You sucking and licking places on that chick like she was the last supper and dessert.
Not only are you apologizing to me but you soooooo sorry it ended up on My Space and You Tube.
How can you stand there with tears in your eyes and question my integrity when you broke our wedding vows every last one of them when you took that woman to bed?
Now you are worried about Jr, He is a tight bass player but that is not the point.
The things you asked me you need to think about your self.
Baby you see I have to rebuild the feelings I once had because you shook them to the core.
My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach as I heard you call that girl baby.
You were weak. How can I trust you when you go on tour again?
Every woman that shows you her body and every woman that promises you sexual delights …. Will you go with her?
Forgiveness……. If it were me would you be so willing to forgive and forget?

Forgiveness……. You are asking me for forgiveness….. Baby I love you but I just don’t know…..]]> Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:07:16 -0700 http://www.fuzz.com/fan/Kathym14/blog/entry/My-Poetry-Forgiveness